dealing with

soon, xiang jun will start her university term at singapore institute of management while nick will leave for sydney to further his studies. still, i am undecided over my future.

my coxswain was persuading me over the past few weeks into signing on as a regular serviceman in the navy, though his intentions were pure and simple, he never did realize that the only disadvantage he spoke of was regimentation. of course, everyone was blinded by money at first sight and signed their freedom away; to them, maybe freedom came second after money, but to me, having no freedom is just like a caged bird waiting to die in its confinements.

i politely rejected him on many occasions, knowing obviously that signing on meant doing things against my will and resulting in disastrous results, i am not poor nor rich, i am surviving fine with my current cash reserves and spending habits, he made it sound as if i needed money so badly that signing on can save me out of my financial predicament, if there was any in the first place, i am amused, really.

recently a familiar stranger called me, she was one of the usual insurance agents bent on getting their commission out of their clients, persistent i would say, calling me a month later after telling her i needed time to think about it, it's amazing the things people do to survive in an industry like this, clinging on to a wide network of contacts, only to realize most of them are just fooling around and wasting their time.

of course i admire their passion for approaching clueless people at train stations and ask questions about your saving habits then tell you great stories of their plans to shelter yourself during rainy days, then again i would look at them with great interest with music plugged into my ears, roll my eyes and walk away. frustrating to see people do this? then don't even think of approaching me.

64 days of rejection my coxswain has to hear, rolling eyes those enthusiastic insurance agents have to bear.

that day is nearing.