Wake Up Call

Been busy with school projects for the past month, glad that I am prepared to hand in one of the five pending ones, after spending an afternoon today printing and binding it. Attended a students conference during the Games Convention Asia last weekend, felt like I was finally slapped awake from a dream that lasted till then.

Imagine, someone slapping you with a straight face, with no intentions at all?

I guess, that no matter how strong a person's passion may last, it can never stand against the reality of our profit-driven mindset. Skills, practically most of the speakers spoke of skills which they said would last in the games industry; passion is nothing. I was utterly broken when I heard that, so my passion to write stories, was in vain all along?

For years, I struggled with my personal ideals and beliefs, that my passion will bring me to where I want to be, now, it has finally extinguished, and I hope that it will be, for good. No more shall I need to think of ambitious plans to create some hit game the world can exclaim about, I shall leave all that, to some other visionaries working out there, to wow me instead.

I am not beaten down by such remarks, and I will never be, I just received a wake up call, telling me to head in another direction in life, that's all. Of course, I will continue to embrace writing and playing games.

Which reminds me, that the wild advertising industry awaits me.