Indifferent

Only when we lose someone or something, then we regret and learn how to cherish them, the irony lies in how often we speak of such emotional empathy yet we still take everything around us for granted.

It has been three years since we lost a dear friend to an accident, back then I remembered clearly, how we grieved over his departure and over time, moved on with our lives. Surely, he became an endearing part of our memories, we definitely forged closer and stronger ties with one another, but how long can this lesson on the frailty of life last us?

As an organizer of several gatherings thus far, it became apparent to me that my attempt to bridge the differences in the expectations of everyone, proved to be futile. It finally got to me, that no one will ever be grateful and truly happy in a gathering, because everyone have to compromise to a certain extent. I am ashamed of myself, for realizing this fact so late, causing much unnecessary misery to myself, I know now, that I will only be an invited guest to gatherings.

So, spare me from all the planning and details, thank you.

Finally, after bumping around for nine months, I embrace the life of a student once again, in July. When I received the acceptance package from the school, I was not excited at all, for once I evaluated the reality of the financial crunch ahead, I know my father will offer to pay for my school fees, but I would not want him to bear the cost entirely, to prevent tongues from wagging.