hopes. tears. memories.

this post was supposed to be published few days back but it took me forever to blog down my thoughts, perhaps it was too painful to recollect my memories, so i decided to have this mini-tribute to andrew:

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someone who i worked with closely for our final year project, someone who i regarded as part of my polytechnic clique, someone who i look up to for his strong yet mellow personality; it's andrew, a freak accident took him away from us..

vivid memories of you still replay in my mind at this very moment; rushing for project deadlines every semester, going through thick and thin during our final year project, having fun and enjoying ourselves at class outings..

i remember the cashcard incident where you were confronted by that lecturer after swearing loudly at the accused, back then i was at a total lost and i just wanted everything to end quickly, but you were there standing up for me; that sense of righteousness struck a thought in me:

"would i be able to find another friend who would be so righteous?"

you were always running around trying to hit the volleyball and picking it up whenever it bounced away from us, it showed us the bubbly side of your personality instead of your usual quiet self.

i guess the reason why i broke down was that i took your presence for granted, i was oblivious to the fact that you would just walk away from us like this, i thought that you will always be beside us, but it isn't so..

you know, i wanted to ask you to come back together as 8gg to complete our game, but you didn't give me the chance to even ask you. i want you to know now, that the rest of us will continue this journey, to complete the game, in your honor.

at the wake 2 days back, i saw you resting in the cold hard coffin, it was a sight i didn't want to see. i was in a state of denial; how could such a young, righteous and bubbly person like you be in there?

i'm regretful of not being there to bid you a final farewell yesterday and i don't know what happens in the afterlife, but i hope you'll find peace in wherever you are right now and remember, you will be missed by all of us.

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stay strong, take care and peace people~